omg_ashlee

so am  feeling better.
still in need of a job.
but feeling better.
i s'pose.





saw texas chainsaw massacre tonight.

it made me sick to my stomach.
srsly.
gay movie.






i need to figure out what to do school wise.

college.
hairschool.
radiology tech.
cuts, colors.

i just don't know.
maybe both.


bc we're s'posed to open a shop.
lol
no i haven't forgot ;)

about 5 minutes ago i knew everything i was going to say.
now im at a complete blank.
uhm. i just ate like 15 oreos.
i feel really sick, but im in a slightly better mood.
okay not really.
i hate how i feel right now.
i thought a lot when i was coming home
ive cried a lot lately.
i didnt get a call form the doctor today...
so i guess i dont have cancer.
ive been really depressed lately
i had a job for a week.
i liked the people
just not the job
i hope i find another one.
SOON.
i havent had a close/best friend for more than a few months since 9th grade.
like...4 years? thats depressing.
i really dont know what i want in life
which is okay bc im only 18
but i think i need some what of a plan
i think i will end up going back to school
i need some sort of education lol.
i take a lot of things to heart and lose trust fast.
i wish some things wernt forgotten
im not secure with one thing about me

im basically just rambling about nothing bc its my xanga. ill do what i want.
k thnks.

im real bad at spelling and grammar
incase you havent noticed :)

i want christan too come back. and hang out with me.
i really miss her.
+ i wanna see her cute baby.
italy is too f-ing far.

i wish i got along with more people.
im very jealous and rude sometimes
i wont give someome a chance if i dont want too.
maybe i should try.
id probably have friends.lol.
i shut people out a lot.
i dont want to grow up too fast

i really want an XTERRA
or a xterra
whatever. an sounds better.

i really miss my honda.
like a lot.

im going to see how long and pointless i can make this :)

i have a gym membership and have yet to use it.
but after those oreos...

hah.

okay i give up.
im tired.

i dont want to talk about any of this.
i just want to vent.

Well, they found my car this morning.
I guess it was over on northside.

The dispatcher lady said they've never seen a car so stripped.

She said they took my hood, fenders, front bumper, back bumper, headlights, taillights, battery, my whole interior and my wheels and tires.
so it's basically just a frame

oh yeah and to top it off they busted out all my windows.
Batsards. There was no need for that.

I'm hoping my jacket and cd's are still in there. lol.
Well, at least my jacket.

I'm going to go look at it tomorrow and sign a release paper.
I'm pretty sure I'm never going to put that much money/work into another car.